“我從鄉下跑到京城裏，一轉眼已經六年了。其間耳聞目睹的所謂國家大事，算起來也很不少；但在我心裏，都不留什麼痕跡，倘要我尋出這些事的影響來說，便只是增長了我的壞脾氣－－老實說，便是教我一天比一天的看不起人。”
Excerpt From: 魯迅. “吶喊.”
2013年2月14日 星期四
boxes of memory
one packs away his belongings knowing that years later they can be retrieved along with attached memories. or not, life proves...
this evening, I have found my study being termite attacked. to be more specific, about the most aggressive insects on earth manage to reside in pile of my drawings, sketch books, cd/ dvd/ magazine collections and many other stuffs. these are drawings just as old as my design life -- starting from day one literally(!). these are ancient cd and md players which followed me around the world until ipod/iphone forcing their retirements. these are rare ecm cds knowing for their great graphic translation/interpretation of music and hardly found on ebay. these are notes of thoughts during my early career development. these are maps which toured me around the world. being a nomad for more than 10 years now, I tend to pack away my 'found treasures' to the permanent study of mine in taichung - my hometown - and always travel light wherever I go. this system keeps a very fine psychological balance for me. while wandering and exploring the big wild world, there is always a thread connecting to a box of memory associating with part of glory, fun, embarrassing or just plain pasts. these put-away-boxes give me the freedom of moving on and letting go and encourage more flavors of life as there is always room for the new.
those flying little suckers - termites - ate away part of my connection to past, breaking it with acid and built castles of it. at the same time, they silently snipped the thread holding the running kite like life style of mine with their sharp mouthparts. the wind will still take me where it blows, but I wonder the memory tie-back termites etching away was holding me up or down.
this evening, I have found my study being termite attacked. to be more specific, about the most aggressive insects on earth manage to reside in pile of my drawings, sketch books, cd/ dvd/ magazine collections and many other stuffs. these are drawings just as old as my design life -- starting from day one literally(!). these are ancient cd and md players which followed me around the world until ipod/iphone forcing their retirements. these are rare ecm cds knowing for their great graphic translation/interpretation of music and hardly found on ebay. these are notes of thoughts during my early career development. these are maps which toured me around the world. being a nomad for more than 10 years now, I tend to pack away my 'found treasures' to the permanent study of mine in taichung - my hometown - and always travel light wherever I go. this system keeps a very fine psychological balance for me. while wandering and exploring the big wild world, there is always a thread connecting to a box of memory associating with part of glory, fun, embarrassing or just plain pasts. these put-away-boxes give me the freedom of moving on and letting go and encourage more flavors of life as there is always room for the new.
those flying little suckers - termites - ate away part of my connection to past, breaking it with acid and built castles of it. at the same time, they silently snipped the thread holding the running kite like life style of mine with their sharp mouthparts. the wind will still take me where it blows, but I wonder the memory tie-back termites etching away was holding me up or down.
2012年11月29日 星期四
2010年7月12日 星期一
2010年7月5日 星期一
2010年6月12日 星期六
2010年6月10日 星期四
new york, new york!
...if I can make it here, I'll make it anywhere...
後辭職時期,每天都有不同的轉變...
被工作壓力麻木已久的情緒神經緩緩開始甦醒
時而感受胸口起伏的緩緩呼吸
時而因淡淡平順的呼吸而失去存在感
時而讚歎大刀闊斧放下一切重新開始的決心
時而期待再次感受工作時那種強烈的被需求感
漫步河邊
巧遇榮民老伯伯們歌唱比賽結尾大合唱
又比劃又舞動 陽春的唱著frank sinatra的"new york, new york"
哈德遜河及曼哈頓天際線夜色為背景
忍不住 駐足參與這充滿喜感的不專業演出
忍不住 低聲發笑於傻氣十足有一搭沒一搭的歌聲
不覺整個畫面和歌詞已輕觸了剛剛甦醒的情緒神經
忍不住 眼前一陣模糊 趕緊鼓掌 快步離開
也許...心底已經悄悄的開始與紐約告別
在紐約的時光是我人格成長許多的四年
雖然現在準備告別似乎太早
但不趁現在感知尚未再次被強烈被需求的虛榮麻木前
怕等離別時刻真正來臨沒能花點時間好好的跟紐約說再見
在這
我摔斷了顴骨 踢斷了腳趾
我開始了用西班牙文問候 用英文思考
我認識了各式各樣的人 交了幾個知心的朋友
我見識了人性本善 人性本惡
我學會了時而言不及義見人說人話 時而推心至腹肝膽相照
我看到了世界很大 人很渺小
我三十而立 慢慢開始塑造出自己的樣貌
紐約在我心中會有一個特別的位置
I'm leaving today...
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